Tuesday, May 20, 2008

My head is spinning

We have so much going on! Our movers are coming on Thursday, and we're trying to purge our closets before they start packing. It's amazing how stressful a move is even WITH help... Add to that the fact that it still feels so surreal to me, and you've got one stressed out mommy. It's funny, really. Everyone keeps telling us how excited we must be to be moving into such a big, beautiful home. Well, part of me is excited, of course. But really, it's just a house. A very empty house, at that (both literally and figuratively speaking). We're going to have to fill it with furniture, and with friends. Both of those are going to take time, and I get very tired just thinking about it. We do already have some friends down there, of course, and I'm very grateful for that. But I still get tired just thinking about having to meet new people. Don't get me wrong, I love meeting new people. What gets me tired is knowing how I come across to people who don't know me, and the process of finding people who can deal with who I am without judging me (or getting annoyed with me, or whatever). It really is hard to explain on a blog, but let's just say my opinions have gotten me in trouble before, and I just don't feel like going through that again. Like, people understanding why I do and say the things I do, and taking me for who I am. Does that make sense at all? I'm sad to be leaving behind some very dear friends, who have learned to accept me the way I am, and who love me the way I am. No strings attached. Yeah, it makes me tired, and a bit anxious. So there. :p

As for an Elly update, she's doing very well. She still spits up at times, but not nearly as bad as she used to. Interestingly, she's also been pooping more frequently. Which, I'm sure, you were all dying to know. :p

12 comments:

Kermit~the~Frog said...

Hang in there, the move will go pretty smoothly, I bet. The most tiring day is the day the van brings your stuff to your new house. You have to check off everything on the inventory sheet, vouch for the condition of all of it, and show the movers where you want each piece of furniture. It takes the entire day. I had zero time for the children.

One thing that made it easier for us is that we pulled a small trailer with our essentials to the house, so I was able to instruct the movers to just put all the boxes in the garage, arranged by room, to unpack at my discretion. I was super organized during our last move. We had excellent movers, too.

chicagosapps said...

I totally understand how you feel about making friends. A few months ago, I was thinking to myself that I have 3 new friends here who I feel like I can ALMOST be myself with. "Soon," I thought, "I can stop being on my best behavior all the time and not worry that they will think less of me." Within a week of that thought, two of them told me they were moving. Aargh! I thought we left the transience behind when we left the student population.

It is exhausting trying to make new friends. But I'm sure you'll find some right away, and you'll have them all gently converted to natural childbirth, breastfeeding, and cloth diapers before you know it.

Kelley said...

I can absolutely relate with where you are coming from. We just moved 30 minutes away from our friends, but it is stressful trying to find new friends in the ward who don't think I'm crazy for my lifestyle. Please know that there is still a place where you are understood, and you will find friends shortly.

By the way, I totally get the whole pooping thing with Elly. I've been severely constipated with this pregnancy, actually for the past year or so. However, now that I go to the chiropractor regularly, other things are getting more regular, too. I hope that isn't too personal, but I'm glad to hear that the adjustment did so many good things for her.

By the way, I went to high school with the wife of one of your commenters on the last post. I looked at the name for a while, recognized it, followed his links, and realized I knew exactly who it was. The world sure is a small place. :) LOL

Doreen said...

Thanks for making me feel better. For some reason, I'm just having a really hard time with this move. Maybe because I've come to love this place so much. Well, not so much my apartment, but the town, the people, things like that. Boohoohoo. :o(

Kermit, I don't think I'm that organized. I think as long as we make sure all the boxes get labeled, we'll be okay... I'm just glad to have movers, takes some of the stress out of moving.

Lajuana, I guess moving is just part of life, huh? I'm hoping for some stability. I hope Dave is going to just love his job, and we won't have to move again for a really long time...

Kelley, yeah, when we first went, her lower back was really messed up. He wiggled it around and everything, and said it felt much better when I took her back yesterday. He said the lower back influences the digestive tract, so maybe that's why she was having problems. It wasn't really constipation, but maybe her bowels were just moving too slowly or something. Whatever it was, I'm glad it's fixed. :p And yes, the world is a small place. I mean, we're moving to Houston, and we're going to go to church with some friends we made when we lived back in Boston more than 4 years ago. Crazy!

tearese said...

we moved when Joshua was only six weeks old, so I can know a little what it must be like. Our drive was three days long.
I know exactly what you mean about making new friends! People often get the wrong idea about me and its hard to get to know people and feel like they're really your friends.
Good luck with the move!

kanaboke said...

that would be stressful! I have the opposite problem...everywhere we've moved so far, I've come across people I've known before OR people who KNOW people I've known before and have become fast friends..it drives Aaron bonkers..in fact, i just found out my cousin lives an hour from where Aaron is doing his internship and he wants to know why we aren't up there with him.

I can't believe you're moving already too, it IS kinda surreal..I'll sure miss you and your awesome family!! too bad butter mochi doesn't travel well by mail...hmmm

also, to close this long post, I had a feeling Elly would go regular after the adjustment. I guess that my be a "downside" to the adjustment?? hehehehehe!

Cluff Bunch said...

You've sure been on my mind this last week. The week we left Logan was one of the hardest I've been through. By the time I left on Friday morning I just wanted to get out of town so that I wouldn't have to think about it anymore. Do you remember? I didn't hardly even stop to say goodbye to you and Karate Mommy. I remember. I didn't want to stop, I was too emotional and physically worn out. I cried the whole way out of the valley. It was rough. I didn't realize how much I loved the villa (well, not so much the apartment but the people), the town, and the beauty of the valley itself. You're stronger than I will ever be so I have no doubt you'll get through this crazy time with only a few bumps! One tip-that you probably don't need!-make sure the movers don't pack your dirty clothes...ours did and it ended up being a month before we got our things and boy did we have a mildew problem. It was bad too because almost all the clothes in there were things I had planned to pack for our 30 days in temporary housing!

Did you decide to fly or drive? You're welcome to stop for a bathroom and food break if you head to town on 290.

I echo what Lajuana said...I have one person I feel that I can ALMOST be myself with. Thank goodness for family and home!

3in3mom said...

Doreen,

I sure feel for you! When we moved away from our townhouse it felt like we'd never find friends that were "comfortable". Then we started to---and it was ok, but really I feel like I miss you and some that have moved on more and more as I realize what I had. . . lucky for the internet and we can still keep up!

Hang in there--

Sabrina said...

Moving is so stressful. . .but it will be here and gone before you know it. I know you will finds some amazing people here--it's a HUGE area so you will find a niche and great friends for sure! I look forward to meeting you for sure!
Yay for pooping and not spitting up as much!!! Take care! Keeping you all in my thoughts!

Amy said...

Hey Doreen,
It's kind of funny, the whole thing you wrote about people reading you wrong, well I was one of them and I do have to PROFUSELY apologize because after the health problems I have had for the past 7 months, we're trying to change our lives to be more natural. I was talking to a mutual friend of ours this week, and we were saying that we grew up with the idea that doctor's can fix anything and the same with medicine. Now, I have a hard time trusting doctors. After watching your home birth, it makes me wish I could experience that, but since we've called it quits and I also have to have c-sections, I will just do with watching your video for the beautiful experience! Being friends with Kristal Watrous and you has opened my eyes up so much and I want to thank you for that. If I don't get a chance to stop by this week before you take off, please know I wish you the best of luck with the move. The way you are feeling is the EXACT way I felt when we moved from Idaho to here and it SUCKED!! Hopefully, you will have an easier time once you get there. By the way, reading your blog on the chiropractor and seeing Erin's comment, I'm seeing one this afternoon. You were LITERALLY an answer to a blessing I was given and my personal prayers!! I let you know how it goes.

Doreen said...

Thanks so much for all your comments, I feel much better now. I'm still sad, but I'm trying to be excited about our new adventure. It's all about attitude, right? :p

A - maybe it's a good thing butter mochi doesn't do well in the mail. I ate the whole plate, almost by myself, in, oh, a couple of hours? Ha! Don't think that's something I should do too often. Thanks for bringing it over, it was delicious! :o)

Tearese, my first year here was a bit difficult for me, as well. But this is a great little community, and I'm sure you'll feel more comfortable by the end of the summer. Just make sure you hang out outside a lot, and you'll have lots of fun. :D

Erin, thanks for the words of confidence! And the pointer about the laundry. Yikes! We are going to drive, but will be going the northern route, so won't be coming by your place. Thanks for offering a potty stop, though! :p

Chalice, we're going to be in AZ around New Year's. We'll have to meet up if you're around!

Sabrina, you know you'll have to come over so we can try those oreo truffles, ha! ;o)

Doreen said...

Aw Amy, thanks for making me cry now. ;o) I'm sorry to hear you've been having health problems. Good luck with the chiro, I hope you feel better! And I'm glad you enjoy the video. It was a very special experience, and I'm glad to be able to share it with others. And Kristal rocks! :D